How do you learn so much negative stuff about yourself in one day?

Big step for me today. BIG. HUUUUUGE even. Let me explain. My husband hasn't felt good today and usually when he complains about not feeling good, it lights a fire inside me. For some reason it irritates me when he's sick. Like, he isn't allowed to feel good. He isn't allowed to take time to …

Day 3 of submitting my marriage … And what I quickly learned about myself.

I have the best of intentions. At least, I think I do. I pray for my husband. I pray for my girls. I pray for our family and marriage. I tell myself I can give God my whole life. It can't be that hard. IT IS THE HARDEST THING EVER. How can I do this? …

Today is THEE day…. It’s time to heal.

I write a lot about my sorrow and feelings about my husband's porn struggle. How it has affected me and tore me apart. But today..... I am in need of healing. Healing my heart. Healing my mind. Healing my soul. I am tired. I am wore out. I am overwhelmed. I need rest..... For once..... …

Why does the enemy find me in my dreams?

It's been a long time since my husband's porn addiction has invaded my dreams and kept me awake all night. Until last night. My husband recently got a new cell phone. One with internet access. Against my wishes. He has had a flip phone with a passcode for the past 2 years maybe 3. With …

It’s okay to not be okay…..

Just finished up some Bible study of Why Her? By Nicki Koziarz. She talks about Rachel and Leah and how comparison has basically ruled them, and caused a lot of harm. This weeks truth is You don't always have to be okay. This truth is something I struggle with. I carry around a lot of …

God has a funny way of showing me what I need to see.

Here I sit, outside with my mind full of thoughts. Birds chirping. Kids laughing and playing. Wind blowing. Finally some good Ohio weather to enjoy while reflecting on my marriage... Past and present. I have been praying and asking the Lord to open my eyes and heart, to be able to see my husband the …

One year later………

It's been almost a year since I have made a blog post. So much time has past, that I don't know where to even begin. First, I will say, my marriage, is a roller coaster ride of twists and turns, uphill and downhill, a ride that is so packed full of crazy emotions, sometimes, I …

In need of marriage encouragement?

Everyone could use some encouragement during difficult struggles in their marriage. Some may want to give up and head for divorce (i was one of those). But it doesn't have to be that way. If you are in need of some lifting up ir prayer, please check out my page. https://www.facebook.com/devotedchristianwife/ And if you would …

Finding God’s grace in the storm He gave us

As a little girl, I always attended church. Every Sunday and every Wednesday evenings, every week. As I grew older, I grew away from that life. At the age of 19, I found myself to be pregnant. Such a glorious time in my life, however I was also alone. The father of my baby apparently …